Life of the Capitan

Day 3

My dearest daughter,

It’s the third day since we parted ways. I haven’t stopped thinking about you one bit. Today, mommy went to jury duty. I was there from 7:00 AM until 3:30 PM. It was like I went to work, baby! It was horrible. I waited in the waiting room for 4 hours, got assigned to a room, took A LOT of breaks and a lunch & then finally got sent home at 3:30 PM! Which I thought was ridiculous because I waited all that time for the judge to tell me I am excused. She was a very nice judge, though! It’s nice to see nice judges, not like the ones on TV. Things have been going very rough for me, baby girl. I miss you so dearly. It seems like whenever one problem is resolved, another one is brought to my attention. I don’t want to say you were a problem, but it was not the right time. It was my own fault and I am dearly responsible for all the choices I decided to make which caused me to harm you. I do love you and think about you every second of the day. I just can’t seem to stop, love. Well, just wanted to tell you about my day. Not much has happened today except for jury duty and work. I can’t wait to sleep & dream about you.

I love you, xInfinity,
Mommy<3

Day 2

Dear Taylor,

Hi baby! Mommy misses you so much. It’s been 2 days since you’ve gone. I’ve been thinking about you every day since we parted ways. I never knew I would have such an attachment to you. I miss rubbing my belly & saying, “oh my baby” whenever you would move or hurt me. I remember when I first felt you kick my tummy! I was so excited that I got to finally feel you inside of me.. And being “fat” was okay with me. I accepted it. I was proud to show my belly whenever I went out. I know your daddy wanted to keep you, but don’t feel like I didn’t. I REALLY, REALLY wanted to keep you, baby. Lord knows this was the best decision. I will never stop thinking about you & I will never forget about what I did. Just know that I DO love you. I will always love you.